Sunday, November 29, 2009

Christmas Lights

We put up our Christmas lights today. I am so glad, it is so nice to do normal. My husband and I were Christmas shopping and we were talking about how much has happened in the last two weeks. We traveled 3000 miles, we got home, did the shopping for Thanksgiving, had 30 people over for Thanksgiving and today we put up the lights, put up the Christmas tree and did our Christmas shopping and just have a few odds and ends which we hope to do tomorrow and we will be finished. I would like to have everything finished before the first of December.
The doctors have said that there is nothing more they can do so they are talking of sending my Mom home to hospice and she will die in 1 to 5 days because she won't be able to be given food or water. I have kept busy because I just don't know what else to do. I keep thinking that only Doctors can legally get away with murder. I know this is wrong thinking because the the degree of her cancer but still I have never had to walk though anything quite like this. I am so sick within my soul.
So my prayer has been for the Lord to be merciful. My faith in Him is absolute and unwavering because I know that our God is in heaven and if anything was ever out of His control He would cease to be God. I can rest in that this is His perfect will and His purpose and that He will be glorified. He promises that He is in the midst of it when you pass through the fire.
Today I thought, I must keep my attention on all of the little things I am thankful for and sometimes as I sit in that age long minute I look at His greatness and not the chaos.
So I am happy for Christmas Lights today because they remind me that long ago, a Father sent His Son to be the Light of the World for us. We have so much to be thankful for.


Kessie said...

The house looks so pretty! I can't believe you guys have all the Christmas stuff done already. I think online wishlists just make everything so much easier.

I guess we should pray for grandma to just go home to be with the Lord so she doesn't have to suffer anymore. I'll bet you she'd hang on through Christmas if she could.

Meg said...

Aww, your house owns our house. :( Kind of a tough one to beat though...

Just think of all the time you've had with her and remember, you'll see her again one day! It's not the end of seeing her, just a pause.

Farm Girl said...

Thank you both for your sweet, sweet comments. It is true and I know it in my mind, but my heart keeps getting in the way.
I guess that I love all of you guys so much, I just don't ever want you to have to go though this. :)