I love when Friday arrives. I especially love that tomorrow is Saturday and my campers will be home from camp. I have felt all week like the house has been waiting and holding it's breath. It is hard I suppose to learn to love quiet. I am a bit uncomfortable with it I admit. After my Dad died and my Mom was alone in the house, she would say," what I miss most is laughter." I couldn't really understand then but now I do.
Yesterday was a migraine day. I believe one of the worst I have ever had in my life. It is funny this one was so bad I couldn't remember words. I would try to type and I couldn't spell and I would transpose letters. So if I left you a comment, and it was weird or more so than normal, I blame it on that.
Yesterday, things become smaller and more compact. The littlest thing in a normal day become big when in pain. Putting my chicks up when the bug lady came, folding laundry. I always find comfort in doing the normal things. What I thought about yesterday was love. Pain narrows my vision. Everything that on a normal day that I think is important isn't. What matters most, is that loving others and knowing they are loved is what is important.
To wake up this morning to a new day it was wonderful. The demon that lurked in my head is gone but it leaves a trace of pain. I am thankful for pain though, because when I am in the midst of it, I am reminded how beautiful life is and I am reminded of how truly thankful I am for friends and family and how fast it could be gone.
I am glad today is Friday and like a fresh canvas I have been given, I am ready to paint my world today.
It is so nice to be back,
~Kim~
21 comments:
Your closeup photos of flowers are lovely. Makes we want to pick them and smell them.
you have the most wonderful attitude - of gratitude and beauty. :)
i missed you kim, i checked in on you several times and i am so glad you are feeling better.
i am getting use to the quite, chuck and i do share a lot of laughter, even though the boys are gone.
attitude is everything kim and you have the right one!!
* quiet
Sorry about your migraine headache yesterday. I'm glad that you are feeling much better today. I agree with you that keeping a positive attitude makes things a lot easier to bear. You are good at it...
I've been so lucky to always been very busy so I never got the empty ness syndrome when the kids left.
My house has always been a hub of busy activities since I can remember and finding a moment of silence to be by myself has been heavenly. When I got married, I had boarders to feed, then we built a house and I worked painting everything while my husband was going to university and I felt lonely and left out because I was stuck at home with the kids and work.
Then I started teaching ceramics, then I went big with wholesale retail and finally went to work for the farm full time so now I really want to fine some solitude but I seldom get it. Funny how life is. We are always looking for something that we don't have instead of living in the moments God gives us. Such is the human condition.
I love you my dear friend. Hugs. JB
Oh soo glad your feeling better today. Those nasty migraines are NO fun. My mom suffered with them for years, but then one day she had her last one and never had another...praise God. But your right nothing like a day of pain to pull things into their proper perspective. Your pics were great. Enjoy your week-end! HUGS
I hope your headaches aren't anything serious. Mom started forgetting words before the tumor incident. =\
Sorry about your headache...so understand the house being quieter, only mine is now permanent not temporary...and I have started to adjust.
Love your words...always do...enjoy the campers getting back and yes, yes to a new canvas
I am so sorry about your headache. I am glad you feel better today. The flowers are lovely.
Sorry about your migraine, but your perspective is amazing. I just love the way you think and write. You are very special and you always bless my day!
Love you...'nuff said.
Kim, I empathize. I suffer from migraines. There is nothing like them. I am so sorry that you go through that. You are wonderful. I am glad you are feeling better. Beautiful flowers, too. Peace.
Hi Kim:
I'm so glad you are feeling better today. Isn't it the truth... when we feel sick, everything takes a different perspective, and our world does get smaller.
It's a new day... headaches be gone!! :)
You have a wonderful sense of calm through all the pain of those headaches..I am glad you are feeling better today.
Kim..
So glad that you are feeling better today!
I admire you for having an 'attitude of gratitude' in the midst of the trials that you are given.
Hope you enjoy your weekend to the fullest!
Smiles :)
Kerin
hope you never have another, I had 2 in my life. I would not wish that off on my worst enemy. hope the laughter returns and echos all over the house!
I'm glad the kids will be home soon and your migraine is gone. But now I feel bad that I forgot to ask how you were when I emailed you. Sorry, I'm dopey! ;)
How horrible to have these kinds of migraine :( Glad you're feeling better, and that you're able to see the loveliness around you again :)
And I know what you mean when you speak about the emptiness in a home .... I don't get it often, but I have no longing to be in the position of being an 'empty nester' ... The sounds of laughter are indeed precious. x
I'm so sorry that you had a migraine. I suffer from chronic tension headaches, so I know what it's like to live with the pain of a headache (although I'm sure that my headaches pale in comparison to your migraines). As always, thanks for the photos of the flowers ... so pretty!
You are an amazing writer, Kim. It's amazing you can write so clearly about pain. You poor dear child, living with pain like that. I guess I am blessed to have no pain. I am recovering from a bad headcold this past week. I had it for a week, it was terrible, and I took DayQuil most of the week, and lived in a fog. Decongestants put me in a fog. But I took it so I wouldn't not sneeze and cough non-stop. Today is the first day in a week I haven't taken the DayQuil, and it's so nice. Although I'm still stuffy and have a sore throat, but that's ok. Tomorrow will be a better day yet.
Happy Saturday to you, Kim!
~Lynn
Me encantan los girasoles y las otras flores la tengo en mi jardín y no sé su nombre,escribes lindos pensamientos y te felicito por tu blog,hugs,hugs.
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