Monday Musings

One of the series that I watch with my husband is the old Alias series. I have only watched
the fifth season once, but the other night when Sidney Bristow is pregnant and she tells
a man that she is feeling very hormonal just before she kicks him and his chair out the
window. I laughed and laughed because there are days when I would just love
to kick someone out the window like that, well if I knew how to do kick boxing. :)

I was thinking today of the place I am in my life. I think
because I picked up this book I love and I try to read it
about once a year. I don't know if I would recommend it as
the story centers on a woman who battles depression and has
tried repeatably to take her own life. I read it because part of
her journey to wholeness is to build a house on a island by herself,
with only hand tools. The name of the book is called Folly, by Laurie B. King.
Today as I started reading I realized I am now the same age as the woman
in the book.


In one of my devotional books, I read this little blurb and really it helped me to understand
when the dark tunnel would invade my life and helped me to understand it. You know
those days when I am feeling hormonal.

Understanding Your Emotions:

"The difference in estrogen levels in a woman's body during various times
of the month correlates to a predictable pattern of behaviors and emotions.
In general, during the first week of her cycle she is outgoing, ambitious, optimistic...
and self-confident. During the second week she is hopeful, easygoing, creative...and has
inner strength and a sense of well being...

The third week she lacks coordination, longs for peace...is impatient...gloomy.
The fourth week she is very irritable, touchy and withdrawn... and lacks self-confidence.

Whew! is it any wonder that interpersonal conflicts sometimes seem to come from
nowhere? Naturally, these characteristics are not true for all woman
and some women struggle with them more than others (and their families struggle
right along with them)
Maybe you need to tell yourself, "Tomorrow or next week will be better" or "
it will soon pass, just hang in there!"
(Kathy Babbitt, Habits of the Heart.)




When I read that and a light came on for me. I wasn't crazy and deranged like
I thought. I learned to exercise when I felt the anger coming on, I learned to cut
out chocolate. I cannot not eat it at all due to the migraines now. I still have
to really guard my mind.
I was just thinking about it as today was a clumsy day. I broke a jar of pickles at
the grocery store. I had to go find the guy to clean it up and I felt horrible, because
they were so busy. I dropped every bit of produce I was trying to put in a bag.
I even poked myself in the eye with my thumb. I was afraid to operate any heavy
machinery today. Still there are days when I want to go out and yell at the birds
for making so much noise.

I just thought I would share this with you today. I know it is because I started
that book, but I thought maybe I would share just a bit, because well, I do have
those days.

Have a great Monday.
~Kim~