Thursday, August 18, 2011
Thoughts on Motherhood
I was thinking a lot yesterday abut motherhood. When I walked
down that aisle and said "I do," at that moment in time it was
the furthest thing from my mind. I mean as a young bride, did you imagine
not getting a full nights sleep, or loving a little person so much that you
would gladly wade into a roaring river to save them.
I have been down with the flu for the last two days. But since becoming a
mother, I judge everything by labor and morning sickness. Nothing really ever
gets as bad as that, not to mention I just think it is all in my mind anyway.
As I went about my daily schedule yesterday, feeling worse and worse, I kept
calling myself a wimp, and shaking myself by the neck to "snap out of it."
Finally by dinner time, I knew maybe I was after all sick. I couldn't face
the smell of food. Then it dawned on me, could I have a fever? I did.
I gave myself permission to go to bed. This morning, as I was sorting clothes
to do laundry. I thought, no one tells you this that being a mother means no
sick time, no vacations, and no one really notices anything until things don't
No one tells you that you are going to love your job, you are going to want to do those
things, you are going to want to make a home so everyone has a safe place to escape
to from the world. I know that I never knew this until I became a mother.
I am so thankful I have a reason to make myself get out of bed in the morning,
and glad I have things to keep my mind off of me.
So now I have to go do those jobs that no one will notice unless it isn't done.
Have a great Thursday!