2013 It was the Best of Times;It Was the Worst of Times...

I have always loved that first paragraph in not- my- favorite- Dickens . " A Tale of Two Cities." I am more apt to say, out with the old and in with the new. As I reflect on 2013 I would admit it was a year of contrasts.
But for the most one filled with abundance over flowing into our laps. We added two more people to our expanding family. I finished homeschooling. Everyone in our family, I think has met the challenges presented to them. God has and continues to be faithful. Now that we have a new year to prepare for a few things have crept into my mind.

I spent far too much time looking back. Not thanking God for all of the wonderful things that were right in front of me that I missed.
I tried to run ahead of God, instead of waiting quietly at His feet like Mary and doing too much busy work like Martha.
I listened to the whispers in my mind rather than listening to the whispers of God to come away with Him to a quiet place and sit and learn of Him. I spent far to much time with my Bible on the shelf rather than open in my lap.

I spent to much time playing the " What if game" , and letting fear be my friend, rather than being like Piglet in Winnie the Pooh, " Piglet was so excited at the idea of being Useful that he forgot to be frightened."
( Winnie the Pooh, A.A. Milne, 1956)

I forgot about my calling was to be a servant. I think I thought maybe I had made it to queen status. I want to go forward this year. To get my eyes fixed so I can see again. Not being able to see the birds in the trees or the clouds in the sky. To be able to drive again without the fear of an accident or making tons and tons of mistakes I make daily, I have spent the last year, trying to cover up not being able to see. Having Ron home this week, as I watched him cover up or try to ignore the things I do wrong every day brought it home to me. My world has grown so much smaller that I want to be free again.

 

I read this and I think it says what I feel about a new year, a New 2014.
" The Old Man of the Earth stooped over the floor of the cave, raised a huge stone from it, and left it leaning. It disclosed a great hole that went plumb-down.
"That is the way," he said,
"But there are no stairs,"
: You must throw yourself in. " There is no other way."
(The Golden Key," Dealings with Fairies,
George MacDonald, 1867)

So with 2014 I plan on jumping in with both feet, not looking back, going forward. Because all in all, life is a wonderful adventure waiting to be lived.
Not to mention being thankful in all things. I am thankful because even though I can't see the beauty that I once took for granted, I live in an age where it can be fixed, and  I will see again, I will be reminded of all that is beautiful in this world.
 " Be Thankful, and give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:18)

Happy New Year from me to you. Thank you for reading along in 2013 I hope to be back to not the old me but the new one in 2014

~Kim~