A Grateful Thank You

I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your kind comments. You made my heart sing again. The truth of the matter is that what I have found in being a blogger, is that I receive far more than I ever give. You all touched my tired heart and lifted the burden that I felt I have been under. My husband brought it to my attention that when I can't make people happy, I fall apart, when I can't fix everyone's problems. I love making people happy and when I can't I guess I do. I think that when my Mom got sick when I was a little girl, and I thought if a I was good, or if I tried harder or worked harder I could have made her well.

 I try to do that still and when there are problems and I think I can fix if I try harder, run faster and jump higher. You know, and then, I have to realize I am not God and sometimes God just says "No," I have to give up and I don't really like giving up. Yesterday, I hit that wall. But today is a new day. The light was beautiful this morning. The air was cool and fresh. Only I can change me so I decided to view life this morning from my camera. It makes me so happy to find beauty from the lens of my camera.

The light finally changed. I haven't taken pictures all summer because the light was harsh and too bright. Now, it has changed to a mellow gold color. It makes all of the world around me filled with a warm glow.

This is feverfew. We planted  a whole bunch because I love it so much. When my husband and I were going to get married and I must have planted hundreds of flats of flowers in my Mom and Dad's yard I planted hundreds of these flowers. For years and years my Mom's flowerbeds were filled with these flowers. When we were planting them this summer, it made me remember planting them so long ago. A long time that passed in a breath that catches in my throat.

I was trying to catch the morning light. I guess it is illusive like trying to catch a rainbow. I love how the sunshine comes through the leaves, bringing some things into focus and other things remain just out of my vision.

It is hard to say, if I moved away from here, if I would miss the house more with it's porches. Or this tree.
This tree has been in my life since we move here when I was four years old. I built a fort under it, my kids climbed it and now my grand kids swing on it. I hope to get a photo of my daughter in her wedding dress in it.

Life may change faster than I am able to move. Life may have hard spots. But always there is the lovely moment filled with dreams and promises and like this flower, it may look tired and worn out, but there is always the promise of spring in the seeds that it has produced. I am thankful for today, for the comfort of friends and for joy that comes in the simple things, like the lens of a camera.

Have a lovely Wednesday, Oh, and thank you for being my friends.
~Kim~