A Sunday Post

 

I was thinking of the passage in the Bible where it talks of being Fearfully and Wonderfully made. I wasn't going to talk about my doctor appointment but as I think about it, I thought I would share a bit about it. Going in I just thought it was a consultation. Not a full blown, eye exam. What I found out is this.

In a normal person who gets cataracts, the  cataract grows from the outside of the eye inward. It is very slow and takes 8 to 10 years for it to bother your vision. Then there is me. What has happened to me, is I have a cataract growing from the center out. Think of an eclipse. It is growing so fast it is covering my whole lens.

 

So it isn't my imagination that it feels like every day I loose just a bit more sight. Because I am. Things I did just a week ago, I won't be able to do this week. Driving has become really scary. Hand sewing or machine sewing is almost next to impossible. Even now I am loosing my ability to be on the computer because I can't see the words. So the fearfully and wonderfully verse came to me as the doctor was telling me that he would be able to give me back my freedom to live again. Quietly in my mind, came that verse that told me even in this, God is in control and He had a purpose and a plan.

 

I have a lot of hoops to jump through before the surgery. But I will go ahead and do them. Little things like why I never could see to cross stitch on linen, maybe I will be able to once I can see.
They told me funny stories about people getting this done and being able to see color again. I don't see color anymore and to have them tell me that I would no longer be in a black and white world but one full of color brought me joy. I think what has been the hardest about this is to think I was going crazy. Week to week.
To have them tell me that it wasn't in my head made me so happy. The really fun part will be is they said, I might never have to wear glasses again.

 

I think what makes me happiest is that I will be able to see color and design and it will be a new world.  Not to mention they kept telling me how good I would do because my eyes are so healthy.

I find that I put myself in God's hands to do to me what He so desires. I can say, even in this I am thankful that even in this trial, He shows me that I am His, and He is mine. I am the one that has spent so much time outside in the sun, I am the one who spent hours trying to have the darkest suntan around. Yet, I don't go through this alone.

I always think it is wrong to blame God for things that I did and choices I made. I am thankful though that He promises to never leave me nor forsake me and that when I pass through the waters He will be with me. Life is still an adventure and I am still very thankful to have been given the life I now live.

Have a lovely Sunday,
~Kim~