I got a notice last night that a book I put on hold is in at the library. I am so excited. When I told the different members of my family they said " Oh good, can I read it?" What book you ask? Cuckoo's Calling by Robert Galbraith. Which is J.K. Rowling's pen name. I hope it is good. I expect to be waiting at the doors to the library when it opens. I also don't expect to get much sewing done.
Yesterday the boys came in at different times to tell me their schedules and the times they will be in and out of the house when school starts on August 26th. My stomach fell into my toes and I wish I could describe what it is, but I can't. Mostly I feel very, very afraid. Is this what empty nest feels like? The hours of loneliness that seem to be staring at me. I have to be very careful what I say because when I mention it to some friends they want me to jump into the ministries that they are involved in and are passionate about. Thinking about getting a job is in my thoughts as well. Going back to my Bible Study that I left when I started home schooling now is an option.
When I started home schooling 25 years ago, I didn't plan to home school that long. I never made a commitment longer than a year. I never could make long range plans because I wanted to do what God wanted me to do, so each year I would take time and I would pray and search my heart and He always led me for one more year. Then as I finished up in May the door closed and now I was in a brand new place I have never been before and now I wait.
Oh well I will continue on as I have before and look and wait and watch as this new part of life unfolds. Maybe I will just become a really good gardener and have perfect flowerbeds. Who knows but if it like anything else I will be surprised and I am sure it will be a lovely adventure.
Have a lovely Tuesday,
~Kim~
13 comments:
oh Kim...fear not...a path will open right in front of you and you will know what is coming next for you. This is an exciting time for you...bask in the love and have faith. God knows.
xo
Isn't it the hardest thing to just wait on God? But He says, 'I know the plans that I have for you... to give you an expected end.' I pray that you will have His peace.
I read a review of JK's new crime thriller - very positive, that's all I'll say!
Best wishes
Christine
you'll find the write path, i hope. i'm still waiting for mine to come to light. :)
i just noticed my type - write instead of right. maybe that's a freudian slip. maybe it was intentional. :)
I seem to have been waiting for 5 years now. I was feeling a little frustrated and useless till I read this "I will live the life He has given me in such a way that it blesses others and glorifies Him." And realize that the life He has given me is right here. Until He tells my clearly, something different.
I tell you what, after reading a bunch of people whining about stupid stuff, it's sure nice to visit your blog. You're facing actual problems and not whining about them online. Gosh, think of all the stuff you could try! Is there any more stuff on your bucket list you could give a shot?
Don't panic. It's just another adventure around the corner. Do whatever makes you happy. You have earned some me-time.
Let me know if you like that book. I've been thinking of getting it.
I was concerned too when that time came for me and there was definitely an adjustment period but before you know it you will settle in just like you did when you started home schooling...It's just another phase of life and I have to tell you from my experience it is wonderful....Now I have time to do so many of the things I couldn't do before....It's different but it's good...An entire new adventure to look forward to....I can't wait to hear about some of your dreams materializing....
I do remember this time and feeling in my own life as well (not that I ever home schooled, but just at the end of a LONG era) and have no fear, He will lead you to your next adventure, and how surprised you will be. The possibilities are endless, and I look forward to seeing where He leads. : )
Let us know how you enjoy the book! Sounds like there will be a long line at YOUR house for a turn to read it, too.:-) Take your time, Kim, and do what YOU really want to do. xo Nellie
Yep, I bet you will be surprised at what God has for you. Let me encourage you by saying empty nest isn't so bad...they come to visit often!! ha! ha!
God is already there, He is waiting to open the gate to you when you reach the signpost on your next stopover called your life. hugs, it will very different but very good, just don't settle for what someone else thinks is right for you. You and He will know what really is!!! bloom girl!!
I know that change can seem overwhelming, but I know that God will guide you to what He has in store for you during this new season ... just take some time to stop and pray ... just like you did about the upcoming school year and the decisions you needed to make when you were homeschooling.
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