In a normal person who gets cataracts, the cataract grows from the outside of the eye inward. It is very slow and takes 8 to 10 years for it to bother your vision. Then there is me. What has happened to me, is I have a cataract growing from the center out. Think of an eclipse. It is growing so fast it is covering my whole lens.
They told me funny stories about people getting this done and being able to see color again. I don't see color anymore and to have them tell me that I would no longer be in a black and white world but one full of color brought me joy. I think what has been the hardest about this is to think I was going crazy. Week to week.
To have them tell me that it wasn't in my head made me so happy. The really fun part will be is they said, I might never have to wear glasses again.
I find that I put myself in God's hands to do to me what He so desires. I can say, even in this I am thankful that even in this trial, He shows me that I am His, and He is mine. I am the one that has spent so much time outside in the sun, I am the one who spent hours trying to have the darkest suntan around. Yet, I don't go through this alone.
I always think it is wrong to blame God for things that I did and choices I made. I am thankful though that He promises to never leave me nor forsake me and that when I pass through the waters He will be with me. Life is still an adventure and I am still very thankful to have been given the life I now live.
Have a lovely Sunday,