Silence

 

Silence, isn't it a nice word? After the rush and busyness of December, I find that January is nice to rest and have silence. When it is foggy here, the fog, like snow makes sound not travel and makes everything hush.
I have lost my voice so there is something else that brings silence. I have to really think of what I want to say before I speak. Not a bad thing. My words have to count. I think I need this in place all of the time. It also gives me time to think and listen deeper than normal. The one thing I do miss, is singing. I guess when I go about my daily routine, I sing to myself. Not being able to sing makes it seem very quiet.

 

 I think silence, helps my brain to simplify my thoughts.  It also helps me to think deeper about plans for the future. It also in a odd way makes me content to be at home doing all of those things that I really do love. Being a keeper at home. A helpmate. Have you ever thought about how in the beginning after God created the world and it was perfect. God made a garden and put Adam in it. What a beautiful garden it must have been. Then after naming all of the animals, there was not a helper suitable for Adam. I always think that God must have known how deep was Adam's longing for someone to talk to and be with. So God created Eve. In a perfect world, God made two perfect people for each other. To Adam he gave Eve. His counterpart, as a gift to fill all of his needs. Not the other way around. As a woman, I find my joy comes from that deep feeling of joy, when I am giving up myself for the well being of others. I really do love being that helpmate to my husband, anticipating his needs and putting his needs before my own. 

 

I don't do it all of the time, very well. I get selfish and self-centered and my will more often than not gets aggravated and short and I do want my own way. Keeping silent though, has helped me to think more about it. It has made me slow down and look at my goals as a woman. I have always wanted to have a gentle, and a quiet spirit. One of my favorite quotes by Elisabeth Elliot goes like this .

“The world looks for happiness through self-assertion. The Christian knows that joy is found in self-abandonment. 'If a man will let himself be lost for My sake,' Jesus said, 'he will find his true self.' A Christian woman's true freedom lies on the other side of a very small gate---humble obedience---but that gate leads out into a largeness of life undreamed of by the liberators of the world, to a place where the God-given differentiation between the sexes is not obfuscated but celebrated, where our inequalities are seen as essential to the image of God, for it is in male and female, in male as male and female as female, not as two identical and interchangeable halves, that the image is manifested.”

 Just some of the things I have been thinking about as I have gone about my days. Trying to get to the bottom of that question that will forever haunt me. Home-making verses Working outside the home. Even now, I find that all of the things I thought I wanted out of my life as a young girl, even today as a woman, still causes me to ponder"well what is it that you do all day? "
The fact that I am a woman does not make me a different kind of Christian, but the fact that I am a Christian makes me a different kind of woman.” Elisabeth Elliot

I guess it is time to make these fingers of mine to be silent as well. I cleaned out my pantry yesterday. I actually had spices from the 1980s. Isn't that amazing. I just kept them for the bottles. I have my own hoarder ways. We have went through three moves and I still kept them.

I hope your day is a wonderful one. It is going to be a pretty day here. Thank you for stopping bye today.

~Kim~

 

“Maturity starts with the willingness to give oneself.”
  "Elisabeth Elliot---Let me be a Woman"