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Saturday, September 14, 2013

Just Thinking

At the beginning of the year, I got into a bad habit. I started worrying about everything. The Bible says " Be anxious for nothing. But in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." ( Philippians 4:6-7)

Some where this year I forgot what it said and my version is " Worry about everything, bite your fingernails and make myself sick and try to do it all on my own. Grumble, complain and whine and become so tense I add 10 years to my face."

Yesterday before I left I got a phone call that terrified me. I had to leave though, and before I left instead of deciding to stay home and worry, it occurred to me, just sit down and pray about it and leave it in God's hands. Which I did. No sooner did I get into the car and put on my seat belt when another thought occurred to me. I thought to myself, good grief, what has happened to me. So I bowed my head, and prayed about that fear. As I am driving, I realize that my mind is being bombarded with anxious, scary and just plain nutty thoughts.

I know that I am to be "Transformed by renewing my mind." Somewhere I had allowed my thoughts to start ruling me instead of catching them as soon as they occur. I got to the grocery store and I prayed as I walked through the doors that I could get in and out. There is a person that introduced herself to me, and I really didn't have time to talk to her and I prayed she wouldn't see me. I know, I know, not nice but I was in a hurry. I was on one aisle and I could hear her talking on the next one over from me. I prayed, and then as I turned my basket the aisle was empty, not a soul there but me. I said to myself, " Oh thank you Lord." I went on with my shopping. I got every thing I needed in record time and they even called another checker as I got up to the checkout.

As I was going out the door to my car, I suddenly remembered, I didn't get eggs. My chickens are laying about 3 eggs a day so I am having to buy eggs. Instead of starting to panic, I said, " Oh Lord, could you have my hens lay eggs today so we will have enough eggs tomorrow?" Last night, when I collected eggs I had six, double what I have normally get each day

I guess it was because I was paying attention to it, but all day, my thoughts were just out of control. I kept praying about them and it did feel like a war, but by the time I went to bed, I was calm and not exhausted like a normal day.
So this morning I realized that in order to have peace I need to watch those thoughts that are out of control and I have to start taking every thought captive. It may be a war but it was so worth the freedom that I experienced from fear and worry.

I just thought I would tell you about it because I really don't want all of those worry lines on my face.
I wrote down a couple of quotes because it reminds me of how through my own  inattention, I had allowed worry, anxious thoughts and fear to become the rulers in my own life rather than the freedom I want to have each day. " Such strange creatures are we that we probably smart under blows which never fall upon us than we do under those which actually come." ( C.H. Spurgeon)

"Fear is more dangerous enemy than those you fear." ( Thomas Watson)
 Not to mention being aware of how many, tiny, little prayers that God answered for me. To be reminded how much God does care. I forget. I really did have a shocked look on my face when I had to hold out my shirt to carry six eggs up to the house. Even Ron asked what was wrong. I am really a woman of little faith.

I hope you have a lovely weekend today,





TexWisGirl said...

i need to calm myself down and pray, too. :)

Pom Pom said...

Oh you good, good, good girl. He's your covering. Hooray for the eggs! That's so great!
I'm off to see some grands. I must stop at the store and get provisions before I go to Kelli's to see seven of the nine!
love love love

Beth said...

I could have written this post myself. I am a worrier too and it is extremely hard for me to put myself and my worries in God's hands. I found out the last 2 months that doing so is the only way for me to find peace of mind.

Julia said...

Dear Kim, you are a wise woman to turn to prayer. I have found that when I pray with intention, God always answer my prayer somehow. When you have faith in God, He gives you Peace.


I got all the kittens and the mother cat to the SPCA without incident this morning.I felt so guilty abandoning the mother. She's such a sweet and friendly cat that I gave them a good money donation to get her fixed. I just wanted you to know.

JB said...

Amen...this went with my devotional today, thanks for tying up my devotional with a bow of confirmation. I too am battling the thoughts in my mind, but I am also seeing how much God is in the regular everyday things in my life.
Thanks for a great weekend post!

Nancy said...

Fear can keep us up all night. But faith makes a soft pillow. :D

Alica said...

Thanks for the reminder to stop and pray. It's instinctive to worry, and to let fear take over. So glad you saw the answers to your prayers. It's the little things, that remind us that He is listening to US! :)

Miss Debbie said...

Thanks for being "real" with us! We all struggle with worry and fear and a lack of faith. It is encouraging to hear how you faced it, gave it to God and had victory over it! Isn't God good?

Debbie said...

awww Kim, sometimes we ruin today worrying about tomorrow!! I hope you are able to relax and worry less!!

Loved seeing your pumpkins!!

Jacque. said...

What a wonderful reminder for us it all over to God...and watching it all happen for the good. Amen! xo

Larkrise garden girl said...

What a helpful post.It's hard not to worry.We have to keep reminding our selves to pray instead of rehashing a thought over and over.I too struggle with
this emotion.hugs cheri

Debbie said...

this is an on going constant battle for me. I no sooner think I might have it whipped, when up crops the ugly head of fear again and again. we must in constant prayer about this, but that's OK. He is faithful. enjoy your day!

Gumbo Lily said...

You were wise to recognize your need to just ask. He really does care about all the little things, doesn't He? Thanks for the reminder to talk to God about every little thing.

Will and Tracy said...

Thank you for sharing. I needed to read this and take your advice and calm down and keep my eyes mind and heart on Jesus.