It could have just been my imagination. This morning when I went outside I thought I noticed the faint change in the feel and the smell of summer. I am always alert for the first glimpse that summer will change day by day. Already I noticed this morning that the sun has changed and it was dark when I first awoke. It no longer comes in the furthermost spot of my front windows. It starts making it journey back down to Bear Mountain. I can't tell you why that gave me hope but it did. Even though I know I have many, many days left of over 100 degree temperatures.
Change comes like that, sometimes, quietly, simply. As I learn to live in this next part of life, a new season seems to emerge. When I first went from being single to married, that was a incredible change in giving up what I thought was me to become us. Then when each baby came we became a family. Then as each of the kids began to grow up to want to fly and then they returned to bring first the person who made them go from being one and then two and then they brought children who added more zest and life and happiness and of course tears and testing and trusting. They all began to be in their own families, themselves. When I first welcomed three grandsons in this world in three days, We still had a 10 year old at home. Life has been so full.
Last weekend all of the boys and Emilie and Nik took a day trip to the beach. For the first time again. It was just us after 33 years we were home alone. I think this will happen more and more often now. I am so thankful that we have spent those years working on our relationship and have always been each others best friend. I am thankful for the laughter and even when the BBQ caught on fire and flames where shooting out the back and we torched the fancy steaks I had bought for the romantic dinner for two I had planned. The baked potatoes were great.
So life still has surprises, it is still filled with dreams. It still reminds me that life is made for living and in the still quiet that seems to be around me more and more, life is still a blessed gift and as I learn to make friends with silence and being me more than us or we. It isn't a bad place just a different place to live this place of joy.
But in the meantime, there is laundry to wash, floors to mop, and lots of work that to me has become sort of a holy time as I reflect on the passing of time.
Have a lovely Monday,
Kim~
18 comments:
laughing at the bbq mishap and the singed steaks! :)
How I can relate to this post as I have had soo many of the same musings and thoughts. Though I am a little further ahead of you on the road. I watch now as my kids raise their families and hubby and I are alone in our house, it is all as it should be and how grateful I am. So funny on your burnt steaks, but what is even funnier is ours got burnt last night too as hubby tried to keep them warm as he waited for me to arrive back home. They were still good, haha! Enjoy your day!
This was beautiful, minus the steaks, but that is life and you described it perfectly.
I had a flare up once because I hadn't trimmed off enough fat off the steak. Most steak that you buy from the butcher have the fat trimmed off but we have our own meat. I learned to trim off the excess fat from then on. We rarely Bar-B-Q lately since I work at the farm.
My house has always been full like yours with farm workers, family and kids then grandkids but lately, it's been empty yet I'm always busy and never have experienced the empty nest syndrome.
You are a very observant person unlike me, A month goes by and I wonder where it went, lol...
Hope that you keep on enjoying your togetherness with Ron for many, many years.
Hugs,
JB
Torched steaks... sounds like our first year of marriage! We ate a lot of torched steaks, haha. I'm glad you got to have a nice weekend alone with dad. Hopefully it gets to happen more. :)
I keep hoping for a change in seasons. Although I have to admit, experiencing monsoon season out here has been quite entertaining. I never know what the weather will do next, and the sunsets are gorgeous.
I've entered a new season and I definitely need your advice about how to be hospitable. :-p
Lovely, Kim. It's true that the simple act of work can be so life-giving, so holy. There are things to do and we can do them. That is something to be very thankful for. YOU are a treasure.
this is such a sweet glimpse into the passage of
time . . . it's bittersweet.
What a lovely post, Kim!
Hi Kim, I enjoyed your post, love those flowers....but to bad for the steaks.....Blessings Francine.
gorgeous black eyed susan's!!
Very introspective, Kim.
I think having a hardy laugh together adds just as much romance to a marriage as almost anything else.
And I bet you and hubby had a good laugh over the burnt steaks. You did say there were sparks didn't you?
Such a lovely reflection! You're quite blessed to have married your best friend. I gave mine up and married another. Now, I feel stuck. Oh well, the choices we make...:)
You will find other times to enjoy that steak dinner for the two of you in the future. Baked potatoes are always very versatile and good! xo Nellie
Aww, I think it's so sweet that you two can still laugh together over a flaming BBQ ;). Change is good, it keeps us sharp. It sounds like you two can cope with anything!
Times seems to pass so quickly. We have had an empty nest for quite a few years now and I really enjoy the time with just my husband and myself but as I watch my son and his children doing the things we used to do as a family, it makes me miss those times as well
Sorry to hear about the steaks. Sometimes when I know no one will be home except my husband and I, I will splurge on expensive steaks too. Another lovely post Kim!
Wonderful post - makes me happy. And the flowers! Are black-eyed Susans a variety of rudbeckia? They are stunning.
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