The Light at the End of the Tunnel.

 

Next week, a tent will be here. One week, eight days from today. This will be our fourth time around. Trying to get a venue ready, in an El Nino year is one filled with challenge after challenge. We won't even talk about the cold. Next week, hopefully, only one day of rain is in the forecast. Every single day, I would say has had new tests, new experiences to over come. Do I have any idea if anything will work? Nope, all we have at this point is determination and grit. At least we don't have snow.

Ron gave me a test last night.

Circle the number that most closely reveals your attitude toward life:

1." Make the World Go Away"

2. "Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head"

3. "I Did It My Way"

4. "Oh, What a Beautiful Morning"

 

 Inwardly I groaned, because it required thinking on my part. I realized, my attitude right now is number one,
Make the world go away. But buried deep inside of me, what I really want is to wake up again with number 4 on my lips, oh what a beautiful morning. My reflection is 2016 is the year, I will no longer ever be Kim I was but a different one I have never met. I think I can say, 2015 beat the old me to a pulp and 2016 is trying to show me that as this Portuguese proverb states, " God writes straight with crooked lines."
"Because God far more interested in our getting where He wants us to be than we are getting there. He does not discuss things with us. He leads us faithfully and plainly as we trust Him and simply do the next thing." (Elisabeth Elliot)

 

For me, I must keep my thoughts on all that I have gained. Not the loss I feel. To rejoice in the joy of life and in the blessings that surround me. In the love that God gives me and in the praise I feel when I sit watching the sun come through the clouds, when rain is falling all around, yet in the distance is a rainbow. All of life if a gift. Things I understand and those I don't. When God allows, things so far out of my comfort zone, I fear I will never laugh again, then I realize, what I thought was hard ended up being the biggest blessing of my life.
Then I remember, " It is Jesus in me not a different set of circumstances."

 

No, I might never go back to who I was, but I hope I can learn to embrace who I am now. This is my desire for 2016

"Deliver Me, Jesus
---From the desire to be,
praised ,honored, glorified, preferred, consulted,
or approved.
Deliver me, Jesus, from the fear of being humiliated, criticized,  forgotten,
ridiculed, maltreated, and from the fear of what others will think."

I always think goodness, I just want a light happy blog full of sunshine. Then today it comes out all cloudy and thinky. Thank you for reading along this far.

Bye for now, more work is calling my name.
~Kim~

 " Charles Spurgeon once wrote: I bear my willing witness that I owe more to the fire, the hammer, and the
file, than anything else in my Lord's workshop. I sometimes question whether I have learned anything except through the rod. When my school room is darkened, I see most."