Just Thinking

 

I am looking forward to this long weekend.  Are you? Do you have any plans? Ron is off for four days. I think it will be nice as life has been just crazy around here. I am not going to talk about that. I am going to tell you what I learned. This morning, I was in my chair doing my quiet time. I love when the house is quiet and the dark is fading as the sun begins to peek over the mountains. My coffee sitting on the table and my Bible and my devotions on my lap.

 

I am trying to concentrate. I can't because of the cat that wants in the house, and is meowing at full blast.
I ignore him. I keep reading and thinking and writing. I finally stopped my writing when I realized I am drawing rug patterns instead of writing what I am learning. Mouse---That's the cat is really letting me know that he wants in now!!! ( His was so tiny as a kitten, now he is 25 pounds so it seems to not fit.)
The thing about Mouse, is he is afraid of everything. If you came to visit at my house, you would never even know I had a cat. Even if you stayed a week, you would never see him. You would think a cat this big would be a tiger of a cat but he never has been.

 

I had just read this: " If God were small enough to be understood He would not be big enough to be worshiped." ( Eyelyn Underhill)
I was thinking about that, when I was aware of Mouse still meowing. I thought to myself over the din, " I wish he would just go explore the yard and do something else." Then this thought occurred to me. Do I do the same thing? I have so many good things around me, but I whine and moan and carry on when things happen that are out of my control? Do I go around crying at the back door, instead of enjoying the sunshine and the fresh air and the blue skies, but I am so caught up in my fears, I can't leave what is safe and venture out to explore?

I went outside to water and feed my chickens. I ignored Mousy and hoped he would follow me outside the gate.

 

He followed me as far as the safe chairs. I walked around and never looked at him. He complained and griped and let me know of his discomfort.
 I had read this passage earlier and it was on my mind. " J.I. Packer says " Faith requires a going out to, laying hold of, and resting upon the object of its confidence. What we need to see today is that if the object of its confidence is the blueprint we've worked out for ourselves, we're in trouble. If the blueprint doesn't work, the faith doesn't work. If what we call "our faith" means we think God ought to do about things, it won't last long if He doesn't do it our way."

 

I admit I have read that over and over and I am still trying to grasp it fully. But like Mouse, I think I  should have my prayers answered when I want them answered. Like Mouse wanting that door opened. I fall into a crises of faith when things don't just line up perfectly. I think I deserve this pain free life. This week I heard a interviewer ask this man about the Middle East and all that is going on there. " The other man replied, there aren't any more Christians left in Nineveh. There have been Christians there since Pentecost. He said, that for them end times have come. I have thought about that all week. I realize how much I am like the cat at the door.
I get my feelings hurt and the world is caving in. When real faith must be strong enough to withstand all of the things I don't understand. I just have things to ponder and to think about. Thank you for stopping to read my just thinking post. Oh and by the way, Mouse is still meowing.

Have a lovely weekend, I hope you have rest.

~Kim~

“These black times go as they come and we do not know how they come or why they go. But we know that God controls them, as he controls the whole vast cobweb of the mystery of things.”
― Elizabeth Goudge, The White Witch