Down The Rabbit Hole

It is a beautiful, beachy kind of day. Clouds and a nice breeze. One of those lovely days. I read this yesterday and it reminds me of how to look at every day.

Yesterday is a memory,
Tomorrow is a hope,
Today is a gift; that is why it is called, present.

It is funny how a little saying like that reminds me to keep my eyes open to the little gifts that show up right on time and even when I least expect it.

One of the ways I always know that I am doing too much and I am starting to get too stressed, is I do stupid things which I call "going down the rabbit hole." Just like Alice did when she followed the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. It is also a story about some very nice people.

I had to go run errands, I had too much on my list of things I needed to get done. I knew looking at my list I should break it down into two days instead of one day. I had so much work I needed to get accomplished at home so I was feeling rather scatterbrained. I kept telling myself to take deep breaths and just calm down.
I was doing rather well on time and I thought I could fit one more thing into my schedule. My chickens and the rabbit were almost out of food. There was a little feed store on my way and since they carry the kind of feed I like I thought I would just stop.

My car was already pretty full but I thought I could of course fit feed in the back of my car. This is a locally owned business and I love going there but I am not a regular customer.
I went in and told the couple that was working how much feed I wanted. One of the things we did this year is we have gone paperless. I am still getting used to it. I used the little machine and they were waiting for me to open the back of my car, so I ran outside.

They loaded my car and I went on my merry way. Two days later, I was in the grocery store going to pay for my groceries and no card. I have another one I have that I don't use but I had to use it and I started going in my mind the last places I had been. I was so sick at my stomach. I raced home left my groceries in the car. Looked up the phone number and called the feed store. I told the girl that answered the phone that I thought I had left my charge card there. She asked and the gal who had waited on me two days previous said, " Yes, tell her I got it, I kept it in the safe for her."

I really was shaking as I drove down to the place, telling myself to calm down. I parked my car and went inside. The lady spotted me and reached over into a box and handed me my card. " She said, " I kept waiting for you to call or come back, did you just miss it?" I said, yes, I just noticed that it wasn't there and this was the last place I used it." She laughed, and I told her how much I appreciated it and thanked her and she just smiled and said no problem.

I sat in the car and told myself I can not do stupid stuff like this anymore. I can't let myself get so stressed that I loose track of what I am doing. I am so thankful for honest people. I will continue to get my feed there. It might not seem that big of a deal but it is so huge to me. So no more rabbit holes for me. I hope I have learned my lesson. The last time I got this stressed. Meg was going in to have a baby and I left my instant teller card in the machine. I got that back too but it was weeks later before I missed that one.

I hope you are having a wonderful day,
~Kim~