Walking On A Spring Morning

I decided to go for a walk this morning. As I walked with my camera. The beauty all around me made me stop and catch my breath. The trees are all in bloom, the other trees are filled with tiny green leaves. Today I am reminded that no matter how hard life gets, no matter how scary it might be to take that next step. No matter how sometimes life is like walking a very narrow bridge. On either side is an abyss. Yet, to look back from here I am thankful even when the road is dark and I can't see the next step that I am on, there remains a tiny little light. My faith how small it is sometimes, is not dependent on me but upon a great God who reminds me every day, no matter what, He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Today six years ago, our grand sons were born weighing just a tiny bit over one pound. This year watching Downton Abbey when Sybil dies of Pre-Eclampsia it brought back to me in color of what we lived through.
 Six years ago when I went in the hospital room that last time before they took Meg away to take the babies. I was not prepared at all. Had it been just 10 years earlier, we might have lost them all. As it was, because of  the merciful hand of God all lived. This time of year, I am aware of how blessed we have been. Every time I look at my grand children I am reminded of the gift we have been given. Every time I put my arms around my son and my lovely Meg, I am reminded of how blessed I am. I have truly been given a wonderful life.

 Six years when my first grandson was born. I don't speak of what was going on in my daughters life with a three day old baby. Her in laws had told her husband they were renting a moving truck and they were coming to bring them home to Arizona. My daughter not only was having terrible baby blues, but she was terrified she was going to be taken away to someplace else to live. It comes out rather glibly now. When I think back on that time, I have so many blank places in my mind. My Dad had just died, my Mom was trying to cope with cancer. 

I am so thankful to be able to walk around today, to see the sun, to drink in the fresh air, to see the blessings that I take for granted. To be thankful that the boys are six. To be thankful for all the blessings I see and the ones I don't see. I am thankful I have a great and merciful God who leads me where I don't want to follow and when I look back today, I see, I never took a single step alone. I was always in the arms of God who alone ordained my steps when there was not yet one.

Today, I am thankful for God trusting me with so much life. Even when I grow weary.

~Kim~