I got back on the road at 7:15. Traffic was now heavier and slower. I was heading into the downtown part of Bakersfield.
There is a foot bridge that is about five flights of stairs so you can go up and over the train. Then you have to walk a long ways to get to the court house. I knew I was late, so I was walking very fast. I got to the juror services building and the line was all the way out the door. So I waited, and talked to all of the other people who didn't want to be there.
I got my badge, and the room was already filled. I found a chair along a back wall. AS far away as I could get from that Television. The one that plays drivel all day long. Then proceeded to wait. I found out that in the juror parking area, if you are touching or are on the white line they will fine you 35 dollars every two hours until you move your car. So then I kept wondering if I had parked good. ( I had when I went out at lunch time.) It wasn't posted by the way, just a rule they thought up to get money.
So we sat some more, and talked and read a book and watched the clock. And watched the clock. At 3:00 all of the people who had been picked earlier for the trial started filing in to turn in badges. They had been excused.
Thank you for your service today, you can go home." Everyone suddenly had smiles on their faces and people are almost dancing getting their things and are so happy to be free. I walked back to the car so happy to be out of there.
On Monday, when I was praying and reading my Bible trying to get a handle on my fear and anxiety. The Lord gave me this verse. " Behold, The Lord's hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; nor His ear heavy, that it cannot hear."(Isa. 59:1) At the hardest times in my life, when I was the most afraid, He has always given me this verse. I was so happy, but really woman of such little faith, didn't want to get my hopes up, thinking could it mean what I thought it meant. I did hang on to that verse, all day Monday and Tuesday.
He told me, " Therefore do not worry...I want you to be without care...Why are you so fearful? How is it you have no faith? Have faith in God." (Matt. 6:31,1Cor. 6:32, Phil.4:6, Mark 4:40-11:22)
Then it was all over and I realized that once again, God delivered me. I had worried and fretted and maybe lost at least 2 years off of my life. I just wish, I could be normal and didn't play the what if game all of the time. Someday though, I will learn this. The lady who liked bigfoots, said to me, " You are a person who wants to control her life, you have a hard time when you can't control things around you. You need to learn to just accept what you cannot change." She smiled and said, " You need to enjoy the journey."
Words to remember for me. I think since God went to all of that trouble to get me there, I need to listen.
What a lovely Wednesday it is too!
" A journey is a person in itself; no two are alike. And all plans, safeguards, policing, and coercion are fruitless. We find that after years of struggle that we do not take a trip; a trip takes us."