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Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Tuesday Morning

I thought I would do a post, and try to explain why this surgery is so different from the last one. I feel good and having two eyes to see with is not what I expected at all. When I had the first one, I still had a "normal eye." Which meant, it didn't take in the information that I am receiving with two good eyes.
Today while talking with my sister she reminded me that with any surgery there is adjustment. Like not using a limb after a injury, so has my brain, in a way because it got used to not seeing things and got lazy.


  I couldn't understand why I am so exhausted and had the longing to go back to the way it was before Thursday. After my sister explained how she knew people who have been blind and deaf and for awhile they want to go back to the way it was before because of all of the noise and the bombardment of images.


When the doctor said, that I would have good days and bad days. I really didn't know what he was talking about. I expected to hit the ground running and never look back like the last one. One thing I have learned is that when I looked at people, what I thought I saw is so different from what I see now. Seeing Ron now, is like seeing a different person. I find myself staring at him, because it is like I have never seen him before. Just like my house, I was standing looking at it yesterday and how I have decorated. It was like I was seeing someone Else's house and not mine. I am having to adjust to it all.

In a week or so I am sure I will be able to process this better. There are so many changes and even as my eyes change, I am now back to my very first pair of glasses that I got just for reading when I was 40. I imagine by the end of the day I won't be able to wear them. I was standing in the kitchen and I could read a little calendar I had on the sink, from across the room. Things that weren't there before are now so clear and it really is shocking. I didn't expect a period of readjustment.

I have to think about everything. Things that were normal a week ago, today is all new to me. I am happy, it is just such a new place I have never been before.

Thank you so much for your prayers and your words to me. When I had those words for 2014 that it would be a year to rejoice, for renewal and to inspire. How little did I know what that meant. I have been given such a gift. One I never expected. The world is so beautiful, it is hard to take it all in at once.

Thank you so much,
~Kim~

" The blue of heaven is larger than the clouds."
---writer unknown---

17 comments:

  1. Oooh, that makes sense. Gosh, how long will it take to adjust? I don't imagine there's any kind of therapy you can do for your eyes, is there?

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  2. Good morning! Well I can honestly say that it never occurred to me, but it does make perfect sense, Your eyes were really, really bad, and now they are perfect. Harder to adjust than I guess you or I realized, BUT!!! You will adjust, and it is going to be WONDERFUL!! Why is it that so many things in the life require TIME, but they just do. I am always impatient too with everything I do. But given a little time you have been given such a gift. And nothing is left now but the readjustment and healing. Soo happy for you! I will pray the recovery time is speedy (or at least seems that way) and each day will get better and better until you can't imagine it any other way. HUGS

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  3. Oh wow...I never thought of that either. I really hope the adjustment gets better each day, Kim!

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  4. Thanks for sharing this information, Kim, your sister's words, were so true and very encouraging. Just rest and let the doctor's work and God's healing take place. What you have here is a miracle and blessing from God!
    I believe as each day passes you will see this come to pass. you remain in my thoughts and prayers,
    Love,
    Sue

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  5. I have never heard post-surgery adjustment explained in this way, though it is quite sensible! You have truly been blessed by today's medical knowledge and ability. Time and patience - all will be fine! xo Nellie

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  6. I know that it will get better for you with each passing day! HUGS!!

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  7. Kim, I had no idea what a shock all this newness would be to your nervous system. I'm glad it's only temporary.

    I hope that Ron looks better to you than before your surgery. I'm not making a pass at your husband or anything, but he is handsome, but then you knew that when you married him, right?

    Looking forward to your nervous system to catch up on what it has been missing while you didn't see well.

    I think that why we have to die before we go to heaven as we could not process all the unimaginable beauty otherwise.

    Hugs,
    JB

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  8. Hmm, that's very interesting! I never thought of there being so much to visually take in after a period of darkness. It almost sounds like the excitement of a brand new Christian. Where you see God absolutely everywhere and it's almost overwhelming. I'm sure it will all settle down soon. Just look at Sashie for awhile, she's black and white. ;) I love your pictures today. They're so vibrant and pretty!

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  9. What a shock to the system! But, the promise of joy is just around the corner.

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  10. Gee, that makes a lot of sense. I had never thought about that adjustment period. I just assumed it would be instant

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  11. I hope everything goes well from now on...and that the good days outnumber the bad. Rest when you need to...that will surely help!

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  12. I, too, thought that you'd be seeing perfectly now ... never thought about the adjustment, about the time that your brain would need to learn to receive the signals from both eyes. Praying that your adjustment will go smoothly and quickly. {{{hug}}}

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  13. What do you know....I would have thought just the way you did, and am surprised along with you that the second surgery result wasn't even easier than the first.
    You are a trooper! I like sharing in your farm days.

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  14. Kim, I am glad that we were able to talk and that God reminded me of this so that it could help you give yourself a break. I think by your later posts that it is getting easier. I love you.

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  15. Kim, I am glad that we were able to talk and that God reminded me of this so that it could help you give yourself a break. I think by your later posts that it is getting easier. I love you.

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