When we were going to get married, and Ron was still in college and my Grandpa, who never said a single bad thing about anyone asked me once. " Kim are you sure about this? I have known some computer programmers and well, you know they are just different." I said, " Yes, Papa, I am more sure about this than anything I have ever done in my life. " He nodded his head very slowly with a far away look in his eye. Years later, after the whole world was into the computer age, " He told me, " I was wrong wasn't I?" I have always had this idea that life always works out, not like maybe we envisioned it to be, but lots of times better than we ever dreamed.
I have a cat that stays with me where ever I go, she is a bob tail cat. When I cook dinner she sits in this one place and watches me. The other night I was cooking dinner and I thought she was sitting there watching me and I was talking to her, thankfully it was just me and her. When I asked her," if she wanted to go in the garage" As I walked over to where I thought she was sitting, I realized that whole time I had been talking to Sasha's pull rope that she dropped.
I notice, feelings a lot clearer now. I can feel emotions because I can't depend on my sight. I can walk into a place and I can feel when people are sad, or agitated and the one thing I have noticed, I don't feel many happy people. People say lots of things on the outside, but the feelings often aren't there.
So as I go along this adventure and I find just joy as I never thought a trial would bring me. I really think me going through a trial is easier than watching my kids go though one.
Calls me to an untried way;
Let me gladly take the road,
Give me strenght to bear my load,
Thou my guide and helper be---
I will travel through with thee.
---Henry van Dyke---