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Sunday, January 12, 2014

A Sunday Post


I was thinking of the passage in the Bible where it talks of being Fearfully and Wonderfully made. I wasn't going to talk about my doctor appointment but as I think about it, I thought I would share a bit about it. Going in I just thought it was a consultation. Not a full blown, eye exam. What I found out is this.

In a normal person who gets cataracts, the  cataract grows from the outside of the eye inward. It is very slow and takes 8 to 10 years for it to bother your vision. Then there is me. What has happened to me, is I have a cataract growing from the center out. Think of an eclipse. It is growing so fast it is covering my whole lens.


So it isn't my imagination that it feels like every day I loose just a bit more sight. Because I am. Things I did just a week ago, I won't be able to do this week. Driving has become really scary. Hand sewing or machine sewing is almost next to impossible. Even now I am loosing my ability to be on the computer because I can't see the words. So the fearfully and wonderfully verse came to me as the doctor was telling me that he would be able to give me back my freedom to live again. Quietly in my mind, came that verse that told me even in this, God is in control and He had a purpose and a plan.


I have a lot of hoops to jump through before the surgery. But I will go ahead and do them. Little things like why I never could see to cross stitch on linen, maybe I will be able to once I can see.
They told me funny stories about people getting this done and being able to see color again. I don't see color anymore and to have them tell me that I would no longer be in a black and white world but one full of color brought me joy. I think what has been the hardest about this is to think I was going crazy. Week to week.
To have them tell me that it wasn't in my head made me so happy. The really fun part will be is they said, I might never have to wear glasses again.


I think what makes me happiest is that I will be able to see color and design and it will be a new world.  Not to mention they kept telling me how good I would do because my eyes are so healthy.

I find that I put myself in God's hands to do to me what He so desires. I can say, even in this I am thankful that even in this trial, He shows me that I am His, and He is mine. I am the one that has spent so much time outside in the sun, I am the one who spent hours trying to have the darkest suntan around. Yet, I don't go through this alone.

I always think it is wrong to blame God for things that I did and choices I made. I am thankful though that He promises to never leave me nor forsake me and that when I pass through the waters He will be with me. Life is still an adventure and I am still very thankful to have been given the life I now live.

Have a lovely Sunday,
~Kim~

19 comments:

Beth said...

I have cataracts too and will probably be having surgery this coming fall. I pray that all goes well and you will be able to see all bright and beautiful things again.

Sarah said...

very happy for you!

Julia said...

I'm a firm believer that surrendering to God's will with faith will give you all the strength and courage you need to get you through this with joy instead of fear.
Wishing you 20/20 vision for 2014...

Hugs,
JB

TexWisGirl said...

wow! had no idea it was progressing so quickly for you! bless you! can't wait until you can see again!

Gail said...

That is wonderful news...color! Sight!

Have a very wonderful week. You have been blessed with a coming renewal.

Miss Debbie said...

So glad you were encouraged at your appt. I will pray that all goes well and that you will be seeing clearly soon...physically, that is. Sounds like you are already seeing clearly spiritually! You encourage me!

Pom Pom said...

I hope the surgery is soon, Kim. Praying for you.

Vintage Gal said...

Kim, I have been read about how the Lord Jesus is always victorious. I will pray for you that your surgery be soon and that your vision will be better than ever so that you can once again enjoy all of the beauty he has made. Blessings

M.E. Masterson said...

Ahh to see once again I am sure you will be so happy!! Pray that everything will be alright so you can see color once more and do the things you love will be a blessing.

Debbie said...

keep the faith kim and be "brave"!! i lost my vision once due to optic neuritis (because i have MS) it was so difficult but made me apprecaite my vision so much more when it returned!!

cards4ubylouise and other treasures said...

How neat that you will see again.....and Jesus will take you by the hand and lead you.....he'll spit on your eyes (not literally, probably put his spittle on his fingers and touched the mans eyes) and He'll put his hands upon you....pretty awesome...but Mark 8:25 goes on to say, After that He put His hands again upon his eyes, and made him look up: and he was restored, and saw every man clearly!!!!! You get to see a miracle!!

Kim said...

That is scary stuff. I'll be glad when you get it fixed.

Alica said...

Oh my...I'm sure this is scary, and I'm so thankful that there is surgery that can be done to help you! Hugs my friend!

Gumbo Lily said...

I am so happy for you that there is such great hope for your sight. You are fearfully and wonderfully made!

Debbie said...

wow this must all be so overwhelming, but how very happy I am for you that it can all be corrected and your vision will be completely restored. And color too... I am soo excited for you to get this done and have a whole new world open up to you! You seem to have His peace about it all too, and for that I also praise Him,. Yes Kim, you are fearfully and wonderfully made!

Three Sheep Studio said...

Be courageous Kim. God has gone before you on this road you are on. I am glad you are taking the first step towards taking care of your sight. No matter how scarey it seems, the results will be grand. I cannot imagine my days with no color. Sometimes we just get used to things and don't realize there is so much more for us.
I am glad you shared.
Rose

Kathy ... aka Nana said...

Wow, I cannot imagine what you've been going through ... I knew you were having troubles with your vision, but I had no idea it was of this magnitude! Praying that you will get through all the pre-surgery rigmarole quickly and easily and will get your full vision restored (including the no glasses!!!!).

Empty Nester said...

I'm thankful that God gave the doctors the wisdom and skill with which to restore your eyesight! Keep us posted so we can pray for you!

Lynn said...

Wow, that's so exciting, Kim, that the drs. are very optimistic that they can restore you to normal sight -- and maybe more! Wonderful, wonderful. May whatever procedure they do go absolutely PERFECTLY and may you and your eye heal up completely. Praising Him with you.