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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Walking On A Spring Morning

I decided to go for a walk this morning. As I walked with my camera. The beauty all around me made me stop and catch my breath. The trees are all in bloom, the other trees are filled with tiny green leaves. Today I am reminded that no matter how hard life gets, no matter how scary it might be to take that next step. No matter how sometimes life is like walking a very narrow bridge. On either side is an abyss. Yet, to look back from here I am thankful even when the road is dark and I can't see the next step that I am on, there remains a tiny little light. My faith how small it is sometimes, is not dependent on me but upon a great God who reminds me every day, no matter what, He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Today six years ago, our grand sons were born weighing just a tiny bit over one pound. This year watching Downton Abbey when Sybil dies of Pre-Eclampsia it brought back to me in color of what we lived through.
 Six years ago when I went in the hospital room that last time before they took Meg away to take the babies. I was not prepared at all. Had it been just 10 years earlier, we might have lost them all. As it was, because of  the merciful hand of God all lived. This time of year, I am aware of how blessed we have been. Every time I look at my grand children I am reminded of the gift we have been given. Every time I put my arms around my son and my lovely Meg, I am reminded of how blessed I am. I have truly been given a wonderful life.

 Six years when my first grandson was born. I don't speak of what was going on in my daughters life with a three day old baby. Her in laws had told her husband they were renting a moving truck and they were coming to bring them home to Arizona. My daughter not only was having terrible baby blues, but she was terrified she was going to be taken away to someplace else to live. It comes out rather glibly now. When I think back on that time, I have so many blank places in my mind. My Dad had just died, my Mom was trying to cope with cancer. 

I am so thankful to be able to walk around today, to see the sun, to drink in the fresh air, to see the blessings that I take for granted. To be thankful that the boys are six. To be thankful for all the blessings I see and the ones I don't see. I am thankful I have a great and merciful God who leads me where I don't want to follow and when I look back today, I see, I never took a single step alone. I was always in the arms of God who alone ordained my steps when there was not yet one.

Today, I am thankful for God trusting me with so much life. Even when I grow weary.

~Kim~

16 comments:

TexWisGirl said...

thanks for sharing that ray of hope that things will all be okay...

Meg said...

I am still amazed, every year, at how far we have come from such a scary time. God has been so good to us.

Kim said...

I like that - be thankful for the blessing you don't see. :)

Debbie said...

Something I think we all should do FREQUENTLY...look back on how faithful our God is irregardless of the circumstances or hard life that comes our way. You are one blessed lady! Enjoy this beautiful day!

camp and cottage living said...

Kim
You and your daughter have been through so much! That must have been such a scary time in your lives.
How blessed you must feel every time you see your little g'sons.
I believe it is so good to reflect on all that the Lord has brought us through. For me, it strengthens my faith and trust, that the Lord will always see us through.

Debbie said...

you are way ahead of us, i am waiting patiently!!

gorgeous images kim, i wish i could walk with you!!

myletterstoemily said...

oh, i'm so happy you got to keep your sweet meg.
if she's the meg i visit, i adore her!

From Beyond My Kitchen Window said...

What a blessing to have all you love come through such a scary time. Lovely post Kim.

Christine said...

Tough, scary times! Thank you for your encouragements to keep trusting God.
Happy birthday, Twins!

Julia said...

I'm glad that there was such a happy ending to this painful story for the little ones. God's blessings can be found where we least expect it.

Thanks for sharing this story.
Hugs,
JB

Rugs and Pugs said...

We all have much to be thankful for and need to count our blessings.
Hugs :)
Lauren

Beth said...

A lovely post and flowers!

no spring chicken said...

My very favorite post.. ever! God bless you..

~~Debbie

Kessie said...

Thanks for the great memory post. I'm so glad we've all made it this far, and God is so faithful. :-)

Nellie said...

Sending you uplifting thoughts across the miles, Kim! So happy those babies have grown to be six!

xo Nellie

Kathy ... aka Nana said...

Thank you for your testimony. What an encouragement that is for the times when we need to walk by faith, not by sight.