Saturday, October 20, 2012
The Opening of Doors
I sat down at the beginning of the summer. I wrote a list. A long list of all the needs, that only God could do. He answered every single thing on my list, but not the way I expected. My son needed a job. He got a job but not the one he wanted. God has a better plan for him and I like seeing the results on my son and how his character is being formed through it.
As a grand mother and a mother it is really hard for me to pray, Not my will Lord, but thine. Finally after a summer of wanting my will, I gave up. My son-in-law's family just moved back to Arizona. All of his extended family lives in Arizona. His parents asked them to come for a visit last weekend.
God has already prepared me for what was coming. God is good that way. But I didn't know how much bigger the answer would be.
There is a house that is available for them to move to in the next couple of months. They live in an apartment here. The house is 4 bedroom, two bath. It has a living room and a family room. It has a yard and a covered patio and even a swimming pool. The best part is they can live in it rent free until my son in law can get a job in Arizona.
I don't know what was a bigger answer, how big the house is or rent free or all of it. But it is a huge answer to prayer and not one I ever dreamed. I know that now that there will be a job. I had to get to the end of myself this summer because I needed to desire what was God's best not what was best for me. I am selfish, I don't share well. I love my kids and grand kids almost to the point of worship. I am so glad that we live in an age and not one of my great grandmothers age that when your children moved west you might not see them again. At least I can have Skype and email and the phone and all sorts of ways to keep in touch.
Arizona is a very beautiful place. The air is so dry and breathing is such a joy. The colors of the desert are beyond description. I can get on a plane and be there in an hour. I know this is God's best. When I was praying all summer, I didn't know that God would answer is such a huge way or that in praying for God's will God would change me.
" But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord's love is with those who fear him and his righteousness with their children's children."
( Psalm 103:17)
I will keep having to pray to keep my hands open to not want to hold on so tight. Carly Simon has a song and the words say there is more room in a broken heart. I think my heart must be all covered in band-aids.
But I am exited that God never disappoints me and He never leads me where I thought I would go but He does keep it really interesting and I know that God will do and has done such great things that I know every thing will be great! He has worked out every single thing for good. Every single thing.
Have a wonderful Saturday,