Today is a beautiful fall Sunday. Last night was a wake-
up-at 2:30 A.M. migraine morning for me. I should
have known it was coming but didn't pay attention to it.
You know why I am thankful now? Well, now that it is gone,
I use it as a trigger to pray for the people God will bring to
my mind. I find that in order to get through the pain, by lifting
others up I forget about me. When they first started years
ago, I knew that I wanted to redeem the time so that was
when I started using it as my prayer time. I have always
read stories about people who had great faith, and I found
the one common thread they had was to be able to see
God in the midst of the pain.
As the saying goes, I can see God clearer when my room is most
I also wanted to share today one of the things that shook my world
as a young woman and I wanted so badly to be a godly woman
but didn't have a clue just exactly what a godly woman
looked like, or what a godly wife did that made her godly.
I am not nor ever will be a shrinking violet kind of person.
I could never be a door mat. You step on me and I will bite
your leg off. So as a young wife and mother I read about
a gentle and quiet spirit and I was not one. (I am still working
on that too.)
One of the things God taught me was, "Do nothing out of selfish
ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others
better than yourselves."
This was really hard for me as I grew up in a house hold that
had a housekeeper 5 days a week, we even had a live in cook.
I just assumed everyone lived like I did. So when I got married
it was sort of a culture shock. I remember the morning I had
to call my mom and ask " Just how do you clean a toilet." I was
not in the habit of thinking of others better than myself. I really
believed in Snow White, and all of the fairy tales, I would get carried
away and live in a castle and everything would be happily ever after.
It doesn't work that way and all of a sudden I was at the
end of the wrong side of a curve. At the rate I was going
I would have destroyed my life, my kids lives and my
One of the first things I learned from my hero Elisabeth
Elliot was, " How do you lay down your life for your spouse?
Not usually in anything heroic but in the willingness to say
no to yourself, in the willingness to give up the right to be right."
(From Making your Marriage work.)
Three little sentences brought me to the total edge in my thinking.
It didn't jell with the world's teaching and it certainly didn't
with my thinking. I wanted though to be a woman after God's own
heart. So like a baby, I would try, fall down and get up again. It has
always helped to me married to a man who pretty much never
These were just thoughts I was thinking about today.
Another thing I have been thinking about too is my what
I have written in every Bible I own and at the top of
every note book and I am starting to think maybe
I need to put it at the top of my blog.
"Lord, deliver me from the urge to open my mouth when I
should shut it. Give me the wisdom to keep silence where
silence is wise. Remind me that not everything needs to be
said and that there are very few things that need to be said
by me." (Even typing.)
(A Lamp for My Feet, p.42)
" A man of understanding holds his peace."
Just a few things I was thinking about today. Have
a wonderful day today.
Oh, that men would give thanks to the Lord for His goodness, for His wonderful works to the children of men!(Psalm. 107:6)