Sunday, November 29, 2009
We put up our Christmas lights today. I am so glad, it is so nice to do normal. My husband and I were Christmas shopping and we were talking about how much has happened in the last two weeks. We traveled 3000 miles, we got home, did the shopping for Thanksgiving, had 30 people over for Thanksgiving and today we put up the lights, put up the Christmas tree and did our Christmas shopping and just have a few odds and ends which we hope to do tomorrow and we will be finished. I would like to have everything finished before the first of December.
The doctors have said that there is nothing more they can do so they are talking of sending my Mom home to hospice and she will die in 1 to 5 days because she won't be able to be given food or water. I have kept busy because I just don't know what else to do. I keep thinking that only Doctors can legally get away with murder. I know this is wrong thinking because the the degree of her cancer but still I have never had to walk though anything quite like this. I am so sick within my soul.
So my prayer has been for the Lord to be merciful. My faith in Him is absolute and unwavering because I know that our God is in heaven and if anything was ever out of His control He would cease to be God. I can rest in that this is His perfect will and His purpose and that He will be glorified. He promises that He is in the midst of it when you pass through the fire.
Today I thought, I must keep my attention on all of the little things I am thankful for and sometimes as I sit in that age long minute I look at His greatness and not the chaos.
So I am happy for Christmas Lights today because they remind me that long ago, a Father sent His Son to be the Light of the World for us. We have so much to be thankful for.